Rambles that require no response are the best ones to respond to...
I remember the day that star woke up... I would never want to have to give that moment back...
There's always going to be endings really...
And no one you find will ever be 'enough'...
I know part of the problem is that when we don't have what we need we look outside ourselves to fill the empty places...
But that's not what causes the screaming void...
And it's not what's going to fix it...
It does get better... I promise... If you keep working at it it does get better...
Except when it doesn't...
And when that happens the best you can do is sit on the floor and wait for it to pass...
And not feel guilty about it...
And not try to pull something else in to fill the void...
Because then you're fooled into thinking you've fixed a problem that really isn't sure it wants to be fixed...
Who wants to give up the stars...
All you want sometimes is to make the dark a little quieter...
:* I love your lilacs.
Posted by: Anjolie | July 03, 2008 at 08:02 AM
I love the lilacs too...and pull something else in. Yeah. That's a significant temptation isn't it?
Posted by: Greenwoman2007 | July 03, 2008 at 11:36 AM
This was so meaningful to me, thank you.
Especially this line:
It does get better... I promise... If you keep working at it it does get better...
Except when it doesn't...
And when that happens the best you can do is sit on the floor and wait for it to pass...
Sometimes just allowing life and it's stuff to pass through me, rather than trying to 'fix' it or 'change' it or 'control' it, is the hardest thing.
It's also the easiest, funnily enough.
Posted by: Grace | July 08, 2008 at 06:47 PM
anjolie - They are the best :D
GW - It's one of the toughest things to resist
Grace - You're exactly right about that... Hardest AND easiest, especially once you realize that's what you need to do...
Posted by: KT | July 13, 2008 at 10:16 PM